Over the past year my life has become unrecognizable. I now have the ability to feel happiness with who I am, how I feel in my own skin, and what I know and understand is important about life and my living it. As I write this posting, I have just revamped my blog. Now I can step out of the box I had so neatly packaged myself in when I began this journey of putting myself out to this virtual world.
This blog began as a mission to advocate for early childhood educators, and the children we service. While I will still write about my role as an early educator, mentor, and child advocate, I have also recognized that I have other things about life to talk about!
So I will step out of that box and take the advice of my close friend to stop limiting myself to the building I work in. That as a woman, a person in this world, I can have more than one subject to reflect about. And the foundation to my platform is still being poured. So I will go for it and make it as grounded and resilient as I am!
People who have known me from before my inner change have expressed mixed reactions to this "new" me that I am able to move through the world in. Mostly, I have had a lot of questions about how I "did" it. While I feel like the question is mainly directed to the fact that I have lost a lot of weight, I am also aware that I exude a different kind of energy (and mainly respond to how I feel rather than how I look).
You see, I am learning not to dim my light anymore. My inner light that wants to shine so brightly, the light that wants to share with you my resilience, my passion, and my vulnerabilities is getting excited because as I work towards understanding myself, I am able to let that inner light shine a little more each day. And the rest of what I thought was "important" melts away revealing a more peaceful, compassionate, and authentic inner me.
So how am I doing it?
I began with recognizing that my life wasn't a checklist to complete. Instead of working towards another bullet to check off on the list titled "How to live your life correctly" while feeling unworthy and unhappy within my constant comparison and practice of scarcity... I opened my eyes to the practice of finding moments in my day that made me feel good. Moments that I could magnify, express gratitude towards, and feel the inner love and joy within the abundant life I was currently living.
Now I practice gratitude, daily meditation, and carry a journal with me everywhere I go. I finally feel like it is okay to be myself. Some days are easier than others but I have cultivated a lot of tools, strategies, practices, and friendships that keep me grounded in being kind, daring, and living my life as if there are infinite possibilities.
So the blog is changing. As people do. As I am changing.
And I hope that as I figure out how to live this incredible life that you are able to hear your stories within mine, find moments in your day that you can magnify, and experience the question "how did you DO it?" and know that the person asking is recognizing your inner light shining through a little brighter.
Brittany Courchesne is an early childhood educator, teacher mentor to teachers in training, public speaker, and blogger.